This week something dawned on me. I am so blessed. Why this is just now occuring to me, I have no idea. Actually, I have known this for a long time. I just forgot for awhile.
I had a pity party for myself for about four months at the beginning of this year and I forgot how many blessings I have in my life. I could kick myself for losing those four months.
Since this was the first week of Miss H's summer break from school, I made an extra effort to do fun activities with her (hence my complete lack of blog presence.) We made little trips in the mornings to the playground or meeting up with friends, and we spent every afternoon at the pool. It was a fabulous week.
Baby B has been getting more and more mobile; first by low crawling, then on all fours, and just tonight started pulling up on the couch. She is saying Ma, Da, and Bye. I even think she is trying to say "all done."
The three of us have had so much fun just being together this week. I can't even begin to describe it. We have all been in good moods. Miss H has been a great listener and Baby B has not been very fussy even though she is cutting a tooth.
In the evenings, Miss H and I rehash the days events with Mr. Rose, and when the kids go to bed, he and I laugh over the antics of our beautiful little girls.
How could I have lost four months of this? How did I allow myself to wallow in my own self pity that I did not realize how many blessings I had right in front of my face?
Yes, having my husband gone for four months sucked. There. I said it. It sucked. But I should have realized how lucky, no blessed, that I was and am. I am a foolish, silly woman sometimes. I wish someone had said to me, "Open your eyes and SEE what is right in front of your face!"
They are wide open now, my friends, and they are seeing so many blessings. Blessings that I am not sure that I deserve sometimes.
Do you see your blessings? Open your eyes, they are right in front of your face.