Thursday, August 11, 2011

It's been awhile

I know, I know, I know. It has been awhile since I've posted. I could give you every excuse I have for not blogging (including lack of time, lack of energy, and lack of motivation), but the real reason is that I am just not sure what to do with this space anymore.

I started blogging the same way most stay at home Moms start, as a way to keep my family updated on the Rosebuds. Then I found that I was writing about other things that my family didn't really care about and I discovered blogging networking sites like Mom Bloggers Club and SITS. When people I have never met before started reading my blog and commenting, I was blown away. The blogosphere is immense and there was so much I didn't know.

I attended my first blogging conference and met some incredible bloggers in real life. Bloggers who are totally committed to their blogs and work really hard at making it successful. And that is where I struggle. I am not as committed to my blog as others out there. I know that reciprocity is the best way to get followers, hits, and comments, and that those hits in return lead to great opportunities, but I just can't manage to make time for it. My biggest weakness as a person is my inability to balance everything. Balance being a wife, mom, and homemaker with my other hobbies like reading, sewing, and of course blogging.

I think what it all comes down to is that I have a constant internal struggle between "Blogging as a Hobby" and "Blogging as a tool for being successful." Because I have this internal struggle, I opt to simply not post. To ignore my blog for days or weeks on end. Often I think about abandoning it completely, but then I remember how much fun it is and those thoughts are pushed aside.

So, I am going to focus on "Blogging as a Hobby." I have carved out time in my day for scripture study, pleasure reading, and the occasional sewing project; I just need to find a specific time for blogging as well. I feel like I am starting from scratch, but that's okay. If you are still with me, reading my humble words, thank you. I hope you'll stick around.

PS - Sorry for the rambling random post, but I just had some thoughts I needed to get out of my head, and hey, that's what Blogging as a Hobby is all about, right? ; )


KLZ said...

Maybe you're not great at balancing but you're great at prioritizing.

Because I, for one, am driving myself insane. And seriously need to reprioritize. And quite posting so much. Because I can't hack it all.

Cheryl said...

I just got caught up on your blog, and while this is not the most recent post, it's the one I had to comment on because I totally get it. I struggle with the same thing, and when those feelings overwhelm me, I tend to withdraw from it completely. I am trying to go back to blogging for myself because I just can't keep up with the blogging Joneses, and I am telling myself that I shouldn't feel the need to. Anyhow, that was a long way of saying that I'm giving you a virtual high five, girlfriend, and know that I'm thrilled to read whatever, whenever you write. I hope in between your reading and crafting that you're also making some time for DiNozzo watching! ;) *hugs*